I’ve held a grudge for nearly six years. A deep, soul churning grudge. I had hoped that with time I would find myself over it.
Therapy didn’t help.
Prayer didn’t help.
Begging the Divine has not helped.
I would like to let this shit go.
I can’t.
I used to pride myself in not holding grudges and letting go. I didn’t hold off forgiveness. I believed in second and third chances. And then poor associations and deception followed by unadulterated evil entered my life and poisoning it.
I still hope to let it go.
One day.
